Headed for India

November 28th, 2008

I’m going to be in India for the next three weeks, visiting relatives in Kolkata, Ranchi, and Mumbai. Probably checking email sporadically. And yes, I am feeling a little hesitant about this. We stopped watching CNN yesterday because it just fires up lizard-brain panic functions that aren’t really relevant to our situation. We won’t be in touristy or upscale areas for most of the time, so even though the visuals coming out of India are horrifying, they aren’t really indicative of where we’ll be in the country. Still, I can’t say it didn’t give us pause.

“The Gambler” now available online

November 24th, 2008

Thanks to Lou Anders at PYR Books, my short story “The Gambler” which appeared in the original anthology Fast Forward 2 is now available online for free reading at PYR’s website.

When I wrote “The Gambler,” I had just finished a stint as online editor of a non-profit magazine, where I worked primarily on the question of how a print publication could transition online and not die in the process. Blogs and RSS feeds, community-building tools and payment models, push and pull technologies and social networks filled my days. And along with it, always, the business pressures we faced: How to generate revenue from our online work? How to measure value? How to make sure that print and online products didn’t gut one another? We were in a constant state of experimentation.

I can’t say that I found the answers; more like found a lot of questions. Everything from our budget to our staffing to our content focus imposed limits on what we could do, or even imagine doing, and there was always more that we could have been doing. But our magazine’s struggle to transition to a world dominated by new revenue models, customer expectations, and measurement technologies — and what that might imply for news gathering and journalists — really hung with me. “The Gambler” was the result.

In light of recent events in the publishing industry, everything from the Christian Science Monitor’s decision to go electronic to the New York Times’ precarious financial state, “The Gambler” has been feeling weirdly relevant. Maybe that’s just me, because I was and remain obsessed with these technologies and the fourth estate. Thanks to Lou Anders and Fast Forward 2, though, you can now take a look at one version of journalism’s future and decide for yourself.

Read “The Gambler” in its entirety at the PYR Books website.

new eyes on old objects

November 21st, 2008

Last night as Anjula and Arjun and I were coming home from a school event, Arjun looked up at the sky and said, “Look at all the stars.”

The night was absolutely black, no moon, and the sky was full with them, the Milky Way clearly visible. Arjun said, “They’re like snow.”

And in that moment, I could see what he saw. And I could also see that where I struggle for simile and metaphor, to take something common and make it visible again, even to myself, let alone a reader, Arjun, at 4 and half, when everything is still new, does it effortlessly.

What kind of blog are you?

November 20th, 2008

The Typealizer tool claims to analyze your blog and classify your type. Here’s the result for windupstories.com:

INTP – The Thinkers
The logical and analytical type. They are especialy attuned to difficult creative and intellectual challenges and always look for something more complex to dig into. They are great at finding subtle connections between things and imagine far-reaching implications.

They enjoy working with complex things using a lot of concepts and imaginative models of reality. Since they are not very good at seeing and understanding the needs of other people, they might come across as arrogant, impatient and insensitive to people that need some time to understand what they are talking about.

What are you?

violent video games = violent kids

November 16th, 2008

A recent article on videogames.

I’m interested in video games and how they’re becoming one of the primary narrative delivery devices for kids, and especially boys these days.

Every sperm is saaaaacred!

November 12th, 2008

I keep wanting to say something more, and then I have to stop myself. From AP:

Britain faces sperm shortage, calls for donors.

Britain is facing a sperm donor shortage after reversing confidentiality laws and limiting the number of women who can use sperm from one donor, fertility experts warned Wednesday…

mini-nuke reactor

November 11th, 2008

I had a surreal feeling as I was reading about mini-nuclear power plants that I was reading an article from The Onion:

The reactors, only a few metres in diameter, will be delivered on the back of a lorry to be buried underground. They must be refuelled every 7 to 10 years. Because the reactor is based on a 50-year-old design that has proved safe for students to use, few countries are expected to object to plants on their territory. An application to build the plants will be submitted to the Nuclear Regulatory Commission next year.

‘You could never have a Chernobyl-type event – there are no moving parts,’ said Deal. ‘You would need nation-state resources in order to enrich our uranium. Temperature-wise it’s too hot to handle. It would be like stealing a barbecue with your bare hands.’

Pump Six on PW’s Best Books of the Year list

November 3rd, 2008

Pretty cool.

Happy Diwali

October 28th, 2008

diwali candles

Prodigies vs. Late Bloomers

October 22nd, 2008

A great article in the New Yorker called “Late Bloomers” concerning artistic genius.

Genius, in the popular conception, is inextricably tied up with precocity—doing something truly creative, we’re inclined to think, requires the freshness and exuberance and energy of youth. Orson Welles made his masterpiece, “Citizen Kane,” at twenty-five. Herman Melville wrote a book a year through his late twenties, culminating, at age thirty-two, with “Moby-Dick.” Mozart wrote his breakthrough Piano Concerto No. 9 in E-Flat-Major at the age of twenty-one.

It goes on to explore that assumption, using examples such as Picasso, who came charging out of the gate fully formed, contrasted against Cezanne, who took an extraordinary amount of support and time before he came into his own, and it turns out that there seem to be at least a couple different models for “genius” to blossom, one of which involves a horrifying number of dead-end turns.

On Mark Twain:

Galenson quotes the literary critic Franklin Rogers on Twain’s trial-and-error method: “His routine procedure seems to have been to start a novel with some structural plan which ordinarily soon proved defective, whereupon he would cast about for a new plot which would overcome the difficulty, rewrite what he had already written, and then push on until some new defect forced him to repeat the process once again.” Twain fiddled and despaired and revised and gave up on “Huckleberry Finn” so many times that the book took him nearly a decade to complete.

I actually read this article because my wife pointed it out to me, comparing it to my own incredibly torturous writing process. The writing, the rewriting, the throwing away whole sections, the acceptance that ultimately the project feels like a failure, the feelings of despair.

At root, I think the thing I find comforting about the different paths to artistic success is the recognition of the necessity of doggedness and a whole lot of support from the people around you, and the fact that sometimes a late bloomer’s skill will not be particularly apparent to the outside world, because a late bloomer, will, in fact, suck.

This is the vexing lesson of Fountain’s long attempt to get noticed by the literary world. On the road to great achievement, the late bloomer will resemble a failure: while the late bloomer is revising and despairing and changing course and slashing canvases to ribbons after months or years, what he or she produces will look like the kind of thing produced by the artist who will never bloom at all. Prodigies are easy. They advertise their genius from the get-go. Late bloomers are hard. They require forbearance and blind faith. (Let’s just be thankful that Cézanne didn’t have a guidance counsellor in high school who looked at his primitive sketches and told him to try accounting.) Whenever we find a late bloomer, we can’t but wonder how many others like him or her we have thwarted because we prematurely judged their talents. But we also have to acccept that there’s nothing we can do about it. How can we ever know which of the failures will end up blooming?

When I started writing at 24, I wanted to be like a Picasso. I wanted to have a novel sold by the time I was 25. I look back at my embarrassingly massive ego (which was mighty handy in terms of keeping me at the grindstone, but not much good for anything else) and I just laugh. When I turned 30, I cried because everything that I was trying to do was failing. By that time, I had written three novels, none of which had sold. I had already quit my job twice to write full time, living off my wife’s work while I basically failed to produce any successes, and I still had a fourth novel to go, one that also wouldn’t sell. It’s been a painful process, full of dead ends.

Here’s the final bit that struck me, and it regards the support of the people around you. Blind faith support because you’re not showing any money, any recognition or any success along the way. You’re just floundering and failing again and again and again:

Late bloomers’ stories are invariably love stories, and this may be why we have such difficulty with them. We’d like to think that mundane matters like loyalty, steadfastness, and the willingness to keep writing checks to support what looks like failure have nothing to do with something as rarefied as genius. But sometimes genius is anything but rarefied; sometimes it’s just the thing that emerges after twenty years of working at your kitchen table.

“Sharie never once brought up money, not once—never,” Fountain said. She was sitting next to him, and he looked at her in a way that made it plain that he understood how much of the credit for “Brief Encounters” belonged to his wife. His eyes welled up with tears. “I never felt any pressure from her,” he said. “Not even covert, not even implied.”

Read the whole New Yorker article here. There’s a lot more than what I’ve touched on, and it’s well worth the read.